First Diary Entry
Wednesday, July 13th, 2005
Hello! This is Laura and this is my first diary entry!
I had a wonderful day today. It was beautiful outside so I decided to take a walk and breathe in the fresh air. It was relaxing to just let my mind reflect and not dwell on worries about school, life, or any other nuisance that might pollute and fog up my mind and heart.
It’s funny sometimes how a person can dwell on such silly things. I am such a culprit of holding on to things that may not matter 5 months or 5 minutes from that moment, but my mind seems to justify it anyways. I’m sure I will change that one day, for now my walks will be my solution to clear out all that self-talk. I also started thinking about my family. My mother is going through a stressful time right now and even though she masks it well, her eyes tell me that her walls are cracking and will soon crumble to reveal the emotion. I wish I knew how to talk to her and let her know that as hopeless as it seems, life tends to work itself out. Then again I’ve had my own moments where I have locked up my feelings.
I just wish I could help her, I hate knowing she’s hurting, and I hate wondering how deeply the hurt bites. She just isn’t the type to open up to her daughter, that’s what her friends are for. I know they know how to help her. I am going to see Viktor this evening. His family is coming over to my house for dinner tonight. I can’t wait to see his smile. The way he looks at me makes my skin tingle. We’ll see what…
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